By Linda Robinson
It’s hard to write anything when you’re grieving. I know that all too well.
We recently lost our grandson, who was twenty-nine years old, had fought lymphatic cancer as a four-through-six-year-old, underwent two separate rounds of chemo, radiation, and a bone marrow transplant. Praise the Lord, he survived and was still cancer free at his death. But chemo had damaged his heart and lungs, and he lost the battle to live through a brief illness.
I feel like the wind has been taken from my sails and I’m merely drifting. Not only do we grieve for the loss of our grandchild, but it was our youngest son’s only biological child. We grieve for, and with, him and our daughter-in-law. At the same time, we thank God for twenty-nine years of precious memories of Josh that we hold dear to our hearts.
I can’t imagine enduring through life’s heartaches and losses without God. Initially, I wanted to opt out of this blog which has been scheduled for many months. But I know that life goes on and God will give me strength to do what I must, to keep my commitments, and to use the talent He gave me to write stories that point to Him.
Ironically, a couple of years ago I wrote a fictional short story for my Writers’ Forum assignment that dealt with loss–the death of an army spouse. At the time, I could only imagine the pain my main character felt, but I wrote the scene with tears in my eyes. Now, after having experienced deep loss first hand, I know that I didn’t give that scene the depth it needed, the raw emotion that one can only write about and do justice after having experienced the same or similar loss. The scene a writer never wants to write.
While I’m not yet able to work on my current projects, I know that I will get to the point where I can move on, one step at a time. But only with God’s help.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV
Linda Robinson, author of five published novels, is a member of her local Writers’ Forum, ACFW, and Scribes. She guest blogs and writes fictional and non-fictional short stories for magazines and contests. Natalie’s Consequences, the third novel of her Faith and Family series, released in September 2015. You can find Linda on her website, Facebook and Twitter.